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Saturday, September 27, 2008 10:18 PM

JAY's entry make me have alot of things that i wanna expressed out.

tai ma(great grandma)

she left us 4 years ago.

shes one with a very strong will. she live till 95 yrs old. but i think she is still very strong. she live this world very peacefully. i thought back and regretted for not treating her nice enough. being rude to her,etc. i did nt shed a tear when she was gone. only till i mention her to someone den i cried. cos i really regretted not cherishing her when she is around. so ppl, do cherish everyone around you for life is really short.

ah gong(the best ah gong i met)

he left us 2 years ago.

i visited him everyday in the hospital. which lasted for bout a week? i always hope he will recover and go back home with us. i still rem we were suppose to go cruise tgt. as before that my bro,sis and i wanted to go there as weilian(yes, the superstar champion) will be there performing. and the very good ah gong agree to bring us there. but we failed to go due to his leaving. i cried many times when he is in hospital suffering. on the day he left, all of us cried. i prayed hard that he will be happy in another world. during his wake, i did not shed any tears. but that doesnt mean im not sad bout his departure. till now, i will still cry upon thinking bout him. i always thought he should live longer. he should not leave us so early. and yes, i regretted for not treating him good enough. i have regretted 2 times. so i told myself. i mus treat my ah ma nice enough. but sometimes i still give her attitude. which i will regret aftwards. ah ma, im really sorry. but my mood swings very easily. i shall learn how to control my temper now b4 its too late. and ah gong, i really miss you.. hope you are happier in another world. =)

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