Wednesday, February 07, 2007 6:44 PM
now its time for mie to clarify things out....he n i are nt s gud s b4 le ba?? i oso not sure...feelings for him aint e same s last time...tried to make tis r/s last but i still failed to... i tink i still nt suitable for r/s...mayb mush wait till i started work and knows wad e world is going on den i step into r/s.. i oso duno wad im toking...in another words is wen i know hw 2 think n how to realli luv a guy wholeheartedly n make a r/s last..is not dat i dun luv him anymore...but my feelings will go up n down everytime...i dun wish to hurt him later on wen i realli hab no feel for him anymore..so in order nt to drag any longer..i decided to end tis r/s...mayb things dat he done will make mie change my decision..hopefully?though he nv break e record of 6mths...but he is much more better than my previous bf...not everything but most of it?wen in the start..i din realli tok to him..he din give up.. he willing to wait till e dae wen i tok to him alot...n e dae realli comes...but mayb ending tis r/s... haish..its realli a pity..cush i guess he spend alot of effort in tis r/s.. but yet i treat him tis wae...he din blame mie b4 for kip choosing to leave...he oso nv tink of leaving mie b4...mayb he has mani bad pts...but his gud pts covered all the bad pts...sumtimes i will complain to my fren bout his bad pts..n aft dat i will tell him bout it...he will change lata on...i think if my decision is still e same... he will definately hate mie...i promised him nt to leave yet i leave...i told him dat i will cherish tis r/s yet i letting it go...i feel myself s a liar...i feel bad to treat him tis wae...frankly..i dun bear to let go tis r/s... dats y tears flowing but din drip down..but carry on with this r/s.. i hab no confidence dat my feeling will remains e same...i scare aft nt long...it will lessen again..and i start to think of leaving again...i dun wish to hurt him any further...i knw he will find sumone much more better than mie...i know i dun love him deep enuff...dats why feelings will be so unstable..do hope u will find ur happiness...ur happiness is not mie...on 1402 i still hope we will go out n enjoy our 1st valentines...i wanna make u happi on dat dae..may i?luv u~love him but i cant promise to give him 100% happiness*
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